Hello Avid Readers,
Over the last few years I have made tremendous changes to my personality and way of life. I did not do this due to religion, relationships (I did get help from a relationship but did not change for the relationship), or anything else. I did it for me. Well now its time to make a physical change.
I have been in below average shape all of my life. I was not an active teenager, and being a submariner I have not been an active member of the us armed forces. In terms of military shape I am borderline F.E.P.
I've done the crash diets, and the caffeine infused weight loss pills and I am sick of the binging when I stumble from starving myself on 800 calories a day like a fool.
So now it's time to actually change my life style, instead of dieting.
I have developed a 9 step program, each step to represent a week but due to my current military schedule I cannot realistically stick to this schedule each week. So if I miss a step I will evaluate where I am at and go back a few steps as needed.
Step 1- 2 miles/day, m/w/f. 4x15 push ups, 3x10 sit ups, circuit style.
Step 2- 2 miles/day, m/w/f. 5x20 push ups, 4x15 sit ups, 3x3 overhand pull ups.
Step 3- Elliptical 60 mins. m/w/f. 5x25 push ups, 4x20 sit ups, 4x3 overhand pull ups.
Step 4- 3 miles/day, m/w/f. 5x25 push ups, 4x20 sit ups, 4x3 overhand pull ups.
Step 5/6- 2/m,3/t,4/th,2/f. 6x25 push ups, 5x20 sit ups, 4x4 overhand pull ups, 2x8 underhand pull ups. m/w/f.
Step 7/8- 3/m,4/t,5/th,2/f. 6x30 push ups, 5x30 sit ups, 4x5 overhand pull ups, 2x10 underhand pull ups. m/w/f.
Step 9- 3/m,4/t,5/th,2/f. 6x35 push ups, 5x35 sit ups, 5x5 overhand pull ups, 3x10 underhand pull ups. m/w/f.
The goals are simple,
1 1/2 mile run time- Under 11 min.
Push ups - 75+ in two minutes.
Sit ups- 75+ in two minutes.
Once I have completed all nine steps I am thinking of starting back at step 1 and going back through while wearing a weighted vest. We will see what happens.
As I complete each step, I will document it here and in my work out log. For every slip up I have on my diet I will also annotate.
I am not hoping for a quick weight loss scheme, I am hoping to become physically fit and a healthy eater.
Tomorrow starts day one of step one.
Let's do this.
Hello Dear Followers,
It has been some time hasn't it? Your digital die hard is here once again to spread his idea of philosophy.
It has been some time since I updated this here journal, and I due to a lot of changes in my life I feel the need to write some thoughts down. Since my hand cramps after a few pages, and my handwriting sucks, I'm here to type it all out.
I'm married to a beautiful woman that I can't be with right now. I'm a sailor currently living on an Army base. I'm a submariner training to do some time in the desert.
Being stationed here at Fort Sill OK is what I'd imagine purgatory being. It's not that bad, and it's not good. I spend my week days going to school for four hours a day, and then off for twenty. This in itself is awesome, however also during the week I am not allowed off base, or to wear civilian clothing. Weekends I am allowed off base but I am not allowed to drink. I have a curfew on Sunday evening to insure I'm back, and sober.
Being here is a test of my patience. I have no form of release other then working out, I have no support system other then a phone which is my only connection to my bride. Like the subject line says; Embrace the suck.
On a side tangent, people look at that statement as negative. It's not. People who go through life feeling that they need to be happy about everything they do, every job they're given, everything are fools. Sometimes things that need to be done suck, but because they need to be done you have to do it. Trudge through, get it done, move on. Simple. Bitch if you need to, but don't become a bitch in the process. Embrace the suck, and keep on rolling.
My wife, I'm not sad that I am away from her. I'm not depressed. Which I wish was a good thing, but it isn't. I am empty, and cold. Things I normally would immensely enjoy, I barely crack a smile at. LMAO has become Heh. Life isn't as good when I can't share it with her.
I am extremely happy that I learned this though. It comforts me, and reinforces the fact I made a smart decision by marrying her. She is my soul mate, my other half. She makes everything better, and I have my eye on the prize being with her again when this year and three months are over.
I look at how much I have grown in the past few years, and am proud. I changed my name, and chose Naomh (neev) which is Gaelic for saint/holy. Naomh is not a surname, at least not from what I've found which is another reason why I chose it as my own. With that, I took it, changed the pronunciation to a more American-English version and redefined it.
I fully accept that I am an American Mutt, and couldn't be prouder. Naomh (Nā-ōm) for me, and as it stands for my blood line represents change. Evolution. Always progressing towards betterment of thyself and family.
"Work hard, keep your nose cleaned, and make me proud." -- I'm trying. I really am.
I think I am out of steam, so I shall end this my dear readers.
May your days be long and bountiful.
Today, I stand on the brink of the largest decision of my life so far. It has the potential to be larger then my choice to enlist, and later to re-enlist in the Navy. It has the potential to be something I refer to as the greatest choice of my life, or something I bitch about as the worse decision.
I don't mean those statements to appear that I have negative feelings to this, because I don't. I'm excited, and happy. I'm just speaking logically.
Right now I am on the verge of quivering with anticipation. My legs wont stop that annoying caffeine styled tick I get when I'm excited.
I haven't been this excited in a very long time.
It took us a very long time to admit our feelings, and then to succumb to them, and now to take the next step. No one can say either of us rushed into this decision. Alot of people I know were married and divorced in the amount of time it took us to get here.
I have prepared everything, and I hope she approves. Her approval means more to me then anyone else. Its going to be a good car ride, because I know the patience I have gained over the years will prevent me from being easily annoyed over minor things, and the self discipline I gained in my first years in the Navy will keep me from doing things to intentionally annoy her for amusement.
I don't know what made me write in here today, I guess I just wanted to document exactly what I am feeling so that I may look back on it and know that despite my logical fears of a negative outcome, I went into this with the passion and dedication of someone truly in love, (because I am).
I have seen alot of relationships fail in my time, and I have pinpointed the reasons why they failed. It is my plan to learn from those mistakes of others and insure I do not repeat them.
I love this woman more then I have loved anyone else, she has cared for me, and corrected me, and helped me so many times along the way. She, amazingly enough, stuck by me through my selfish years, and my growing years. No matter how much I hurt her, she stuck by me.
The pain I felt when I truly realized how much I forced her to endure still weighs heavily on me, but it has not pressured me into any decisions I dont feel are right. It has not forced me to be anything I didn't want to become. I am who I am, because this is who I wanted to be.
I am giddy, childishly so. I am excited to the point of an adrenaline overload. I am in awe of the challenges ahead. I am determined as the lion on the hunt. I am ready.
This decision feels so right, it feels like what must be done.
When I look back at this entry, I want to remind myself that Yes, you did think of every outcome Nathan. Yes, you are truly in love with this woman. And yes, you are ready to dive head first into this and give everything you have to offer for this relationship to blossom and bloom into something beautiful.
Good luck Nathan, may your relationship grow and be fruitful from this decision.
Sat, Jan. 24th, 2009, 07:33 pm
Sweet, gentle followers, read this and behold. For it is written, it is so.
What kind of info that I may report to my merry followers?
I am sitting at my desk, with my feet kicked up and a budlight cooling my testicles. I must say my dear readers, I am a lucky lucky man.
Uncle Sam sees it fit to provide me enough fundage back to wipe out my credit card debt and pay for the touch ups and powder coating done to the bike with enough left over to fly my significant other out to see me.
Significant other you ask? Of course you would you nosy follower you. Well, nothings has been labeled but it is what it is and well if it walks like a duck, talks like a duck..... Yeah.
Anywho, let's take a look at why my life is terribly awesome right now. I have a bike that is worth 20 grand that's half way paid off. Its been modified, powdered, and painted, and during next patrol will be chopped, raked, and extended. Go me.
I belong to a band of brothers, who's life styles are questionable; but they do an honorable job so fuck off if you don't like. But you do like it, don't you my followers? Yes you do. Cute little fucks you are.
I kick ass at my job, I am truly a technical expert that due to lack of anyone else I am the one everyone turns to.
After my next patrol I will have the motorcycle of my dreams, moving into my own place, and sharing a room with the a fore mentioned femmy that constantly roams my head and kicks out any other thoughts. It shall be a good science experiment to see if I can clean up enough not to disgust her.
Ya know, simple shit. Lift up the toilet seat, wipe up the pubes from the tub, and don't fart underneath the sheets. Come now my followers, we all can agree that this is just common courtesy for those of the significant other variety.
My studying for the SATs is going well, however my dear followers I still fear failure when it comes to that part of my life. We shall see what happens.
Its Saturday evening, I'm half tired, one beer down with a six pack in the fridge, and good AC/DC on the radio. It's good to be an american.
On that note, If this universal health care gets approved your designation will be changed from followers to comrades so watch the news carefully.
August 4th may be a national holiday depending on how things go. Heh.
I love you all my followers, and remember in america you work hard and take care of yourself. If you want to rely on your fellow man to carry you then you might want to join the communist party.
Good bye gentle followers, Naomh is watching over you.
Sun, Aug. 10th, 2008, 03:01 pm
Mamas, don't let your babies grow up to be Sailors,
Don't let them handle lines and ride on big ships,
Make them be doctors and lawyers and such.
Mamas don't let your babies grow up to be Sailors
They'll never stay home and they're always alone,
Even with someone they love.
Sailors ain't easy to love and they're harder to hold
They'd rather give you a song than diamonds and gold
Pressed white bell bottoms and old faded white hats,
And each night begins a new day
And if you don't understand him and he don't die young
He'll probably just sail away.
Sailors like smokey old pool rooms and clear ocean mornings
Little hungry sealgulls, and children, and especially girls of the night.
Them that don't know him won't like him and them that do
Sometimes won't know how to take him.
He ain't wrong he's just different but his pride won't
Let him do things to make you think he's right.
Its a question, that I am finding the answer to be yes.
I made a promise underway that I would get out and do things this summer, because last summer we had together was spent in a barracks room due to fundage and a total lack of motivation on my part.
Well, with that promise, and my relationship status, I've had the greatest summer since I joined the navy.
The bike, the friends, and the sound, its been awesome.
I spent a total of thirty minutes at home this weekend. Got off work Friday after P.T., came home, showered and left. Went and partied up in shoreline and Seattle with some friends, got about three hours of sleep before I was up and going again. I came home Saturday long enough for a shower, and change of underwear. I put on the same clothes I just took off to save time. Got the bike, and was gone again.
Saturday was the Toby Kieth concert, which was awesome. Afterwards I had plenty of time to come home for a good nights rest, Yeah Fuck that. I went driving up to seattle and got my drink on. By the time I remembered I should get home the ferry's were done running for the day. So I drove up to woodinville where Murf lives but couldnt find his place, and I didn't bother calling.
I fell asleep in a park, using my bike as a bed. Go Go me. Sunday went to the club meeting, cooked out, and relaxed. Finally made it home sometime sunday evening.
My arms are tanned and cut. I look great in a sleeveless shirt, my debt is gone, my paycheck is fat.
I am finally having the time of my life.
I once heard, and repeated many times, to truly know happiness you have to know despair. Yeah, I can agree with that.
I got dumped, went through two whiskey weeks, and now I'm on top of the world.
I'll be 23 this year, and thanks to me being such an awesome guy Lore's coming to the west coast to check out the space needle right around that time. Now isnt that such a swell coincidence?
Well I have to go get an ultrasound on my nuts now, so you guys have a good one.
Nathan Motherfuckin' "Santa" Naomh
Fri, Jun. 27th, 2008, 06:13 am
Spirits were lifted when she whispered something French in my ear
Tension was there
When I responded in English it sounded less sincere
Thu, Jun. 19th, 2008, 04:45 pm
I hope everything goes well.
Fri, May. 23rd, 2008, 11:19 pm
I am officially the biggest loser in the entire world.
I am seriously considering turning gay. I mean, I think I would have a better chance at finding someone who will atleast be straight up about fuckin me there. Vice going behind my back to ram 8 inches in me.
Seriously? Ladies, common fuckin courtesy does apply. You don't just do that.
Fuck, ruined my gawddamned night.
Wed, May. 21st, 2008, 02:52 pm
So, I found out today that what I thought was common knowledge about me, well isn't. So here is a list of things my friends should know.............
My biggest fear is to be alone. Just being alone. I get all weird when I'm alone for an extended period of time.
I don't show it, but I need to be needed. Its who I am. I'm a provider, and I have to have someone to provide for. Thats why I insist on picking up the tab, or driving forever and a day just to help someone out. Definitely need the need.
I'm a jealous guy. Try my best not to show it, and I do a good job of it except when I'm emotionally weird to begin with.
My fear of failure causes me not to try a lot of things.
I'm loyal, too loyal.
Everything I do, even the stupid mistakes, are done with good intentions. Even the mean stuff, is done with good intentions.
I can't think of anything else right now,
If any of you guys cant remember where i stand or how i feel on something--